I have to understand that perhaps Akechi-san didn't have a choice. There was a possibility that Shido would have gotten rid him if he didn't do what he did, I'm sure of it.

[Her fists are clenched. She hates Akechi to an extent, his actions altering her life to an extreme. She hated to think about it. She hated so much to always be conflicted about what she should think or how she should feel.]

Please, do not worry or blame yourself. I know you are trustworthy.