[At least the intent of her words is clear enough. She does like Hajime, and she would like to try opening her heart again. But these things... they take time. They take patience. Haru is a patient kind of girl, but she hopes that Hajime might be just as patient as she is.]
Thank you, Ryuji. Sometimes hearing it helps. Back then... I couldn't help but feel like I was a little worthless. Just a rag doll. Nothing to be proud of.
Hajime-san is a good guy though. Muscles and all.
[Don't think she hasn't noticed herself, okay...]
That guy, Sugimura. He will never know who I really am. All I really was...I was a toy for him to play with. A toy given to him by his Father and my own Father. We already know Milady accepted me because I refused to continue being used like I was.
[Please, it was practically the second thing he noticed about Hajime right after he was looking at Haru, and both of those things were incredibly unsettling at the time. But with enough repeated exposure and the weight of his intentions pretty clear, Ryuji's become chill with it.
And as this conversation takes a turn for Sugimura, there's a nasty taste on his tongue. That rat bastard was no better than Kamoshida for how he viewed women. And Ryuji himself might not have had the best moments in the world trying to pick up girls, he always stopped when the rejection hit and didn't take anything the wrong way. Women aren't toys. People aren't toys. It pisses Ryuji off to see the scars that this asshole left on her.]
Fuck him.
[She gets an f bomb out of him for that. Considering the way Hajime and Dave say it so often around him, he feels less awkward when he says it, which is #progress?]
Like, seriously. If that guy was on fire on the other side of the road I wouldn't cross to piss on him.
He doesn't matter anymore, I think... I do think it is finally time for me to move on and be happy. Don't you think?
[She hides her smile just a little. She likes the thought of having someon she can rely on in that manner, someone she can support too. But she hasn't been so trusting recently. She knows it. She knows also that it is really no ones fault but her own for being so afraid to be open.]
Thank you, Ryuji-kun. You're a really great friend. You do know that right?
[If you're ever looking for someone who will protect you fiercely and is also totally open to graphically describe corrupted assholes burning alive, Ryuji's definitely your guy.]
I dunno the answer to that.
[Really, because it's not his call to make in the matter.]
But I'm thinkin' that you do.
[There's a bright smile that meets her back. Being called a great friend is definitely a title he can live with. Way better than "vulgar boy," too.]
Sometimes I might be kinda hard on myself and not remember that. But little by little I'm gettin' used to that idea.
I'm gonna say the corny thing here, but it's pretty obvious. If our hearts can't get stolen, that means that they have to be pretty goddamn strong to begin with.
[They're all a lot stronger than they give each other credit for. Sure, there are some weak spots to work on, but Haru looks like she's working it out. Ryuji, too, with his own set of unique problems that are somewhat similar in nature, but brought about by very different reasons.]
Annnd.... I think I'm about to give up on this okonomiyaki. You?
Points for being called logical? This is amazing.]
Yeah. There's a spot in hell with this dish's name on it.
[It just makes him miss those hole in the wall spots back home in Tokyo where the food wasn't anything great by actual culinary standards, but, shit- they hit the spot. Ryuji picks up the meal and heads over to the trashcan to dunk the entire thing in it, plate and all.
There are no survivors when it comes to shitty okonomiyaki.]
Alright! Cool. Thanks for your opinion on everything, by the way. I was kinda wonderin'.
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Date: 2018-09-01 06:17 pm (UTC)Thank you, Ryuji. Sometimes hearing it helps. Back then... I couldn't help but feel like I was a little worthless. Just a rag doll. Nothing to be proud of.
Hajime-san is a good guy though. Muscles and all.
[Don't think she hasn't noticed herself, okay...]
That guy, Sugimura. He will never know who I really am. All I really was...I was a toy for him to play with. A toy given to him by his Father and my own Father. We already know Milady accepted me because I refused to continue being used like I was.
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Date: 2018-09-03 06:51 pm (UTC)And as this conversation takes a turn for Sugimura, there's a nasty taste on his tongue. That rat bastard was no better than Kamoshida for how he viewed women. And Ryuji himself might not have had the best moments in the world trying to pick up girls, he always stopped when the rejection hit and didn't take anything the wrong way. Women aren't toys. People aren't toys. It pisses Ryuji off to see the scars that this asshole left on her.]
Fuck him.
[She gets an f bomb out of him for that. Considering the way Hajime and Dave say it so often around him, he feels less awkward when he says it, which is #progress?]
Like, seriously. If that guy was on fire on the other side of the road I wouldn't cross to piss on him.
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Date: 2018-09-05 03:57 am (UTC)[She hides her smile just a little. She likes the thought of having someon she can rely on in that manner, someone she can support too. But she hasn't been so trusting recently. She knows it. She knows also that it is really no ones fault but her own for being so afraid to be open.]
Thank you, Ryuji-kun. You're a really great friend. You do know that right?
half of the time writing this reply was just spent staring at your inbox gif
Date: 2018-09-05 04:04 am (UTC)I dunno the answer to that.
[Really, because it's not his call to make in the matter.]
But I'm thinkin' that you do.
[There's a bright smile that meets her back. Being called a great friend is definitely a title he can live with. Way better than "vulgar boy," too.]
Sometimes I might be kinda hard on myself and not remember that. But little by little I'm gettin' used to that idea.
its spicy af
Date: 2018-09-05 04:07 am (UTC)Of course I know the answer, I just have to convince myself that it is okay. That my heart isn't as fragile as I think it is.
[She smiles again, happy.]
Continue getting used to it, because I will keep reminding you until you remember it!
i rate it 10 chilis out of 10
Date: 2018-09-05 04:12 am (UTC)[They're all a lot stronger than they give each other credit for. Sure, there are some weak spots to work on, but Haru looks like she's working it out. Ryuji, too, with his own set of unique problems that are somewhat similar in nature, but brought about by very different reasons.]
Annnd.... I think I'm about to give up on this okonomiyaki. You?
[ANOTHER SACRIFICE FOR THE TOILET GODS.]
thank you thank you, she's here all month, or for the rest of her life
Date: 2018-09-05 04:15 am (UTC)[They may be strong, but their stomachs...are not.]
I think I am done with it as well. Can we please dispose of this post-haste?
god that is the saddest thing i've ever read
Date: 2018-09-07 12:58 am (UTC)Points for being called logical? This is amazing.]
Yeah. There's a spot in hell with this dish's name on it.
[It just makes him miss those hole in the wall spots back home in Tokyo where the food wasn't anything great by actual culinary standards, but, shit- they hit the spot. Ryuji picks up the meal and heads over to the trashcan to dunk the entire thing in it, plate and all.
There are no survivors when it comes to shitty okonomiyaki.]
Alright! Cool. Thanks for your opinion on everything, by the way. I was kinda wonderin'.