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[inspiteful]

[ ?!?!?!?!?!

I mean at least he isn't protesting and slowly reaches up to hug back. ]

[mapsio]

[ Giving him a little squeeze. Much better. ]

Sorry.

[inspiteful]

I'm the one who should be apologising, you know.

[mapsio]

You are entitled to how you feel. I cannot change that.

[inspiteful]

Yeah, but...if I'm the only one having problems, then isn't it my fault?

[mapsio]

No? It's not your fault?

[inspiteful]

...Thank you.

[ He really needed to hear that from someone. ]

[mapsio]

We are human, Eclipse. We're going to disagree. We're going to see things differently. It's...important that we got back on the same page.

[inspiteful]

I mean, I know we were going to disagree. That's what people do?

...It just wears down when it feels like that's all I've been doing and getting, lately.

[mapsio]

The politics here are pretty rough, aren't they?

[inspiteful]

Yes.

...I'm tired of feeling like a bad guy for wanting to not die.

[mapsio]

You aren't the bad guy though. I know...it feels like it. But just know that at the very least I don't think you are wrong for wanting to live.

And I apologize that my idealistic views sometimes get in the way of living. I hate that a lot too, you know.

[inspiteful]

...Thanks.

[ Sorry he's hugging her a little tighter because hearing someone say it means...a lot right now. ]

And I don't know at least -- you seem to be aware of it. And I'm not mad at you for trying to compromise, even though it didn't work out.

[mapsio]

I know what my faults are, and they are mine to deal with in the end, aren't they?

[ Rubbing his back a little, trying to make this...a productive conversation at the very least. ]

I wanted it to work out so bad, Eclipse. I still feel like I made the wrong decision... even if I just tried to help.

[inspiteful]

[ It's been more productive than most conversations he's had with HSS lately, at least. ]

...I wanted it to work out for us too. And if you made the wrong decision, then I already made the wrong decision when there were things I could have tried to argue harder for during that game. Like stealing in an earlier round so we had a bigger cushion to fall back on, or insisting we not send anything during the second round. ...It's already happened, so thinking about the what-ifs won't do us any good.

[mapsio]

No, perhaps not. But do you know how much it hurt to disappoint you?

[inspiteful]

...

[ He doesn't say anything, but he doesn't move away either. ]

[mapsio]

I thought to myself... "what will I do if Eclipse resents me for the choices I have made"? It was a sad answer every time.

[inspiteful]

...Thank you, for talking to me. I'm...not a very kind person at heart, I think. I was starting to feel like my opinions didn't really make much of a difference at the end of the day.

[mapsio]

I don't think it is necessarily that you aren't a kind person. I think... our situations are different and that is what drives us to be who we are. And drives us to make such vastly different decisions.

[inspiteful]

Kind of hard not to feel like the odd one out when I'm that different from everyone else.

...But that's why we're here, right?

[mapsio]

I want to understand better.

[inspiteful]

What do you want to know about me?

[mapsio]

You have told me a bit about your world...but, tell me about you?

[inspiteful]

Ah, uhm...

[ ...Well, he supposes he should start with the basics, since he thinks a lot of HSS doesn't know even that much. ]

My actual name is Gracious Skylark -- it's come up in some of my memories, but no one's commented on it and switching to it right now would be a pain in the ass, so for now I'm still just Eclipse. My mother's a courtesan, and I grew up with a bunch of sisters who are the other courtesans. I...uhm, lived in a brothel and I worked as an errand boy and attendant there. Though then I ended up apprenticing under a doctor so I work for him now. I like pork and walks along the beach?

...Is that a good enough start?