[ She's not used to just letting her feelings run free like this. At least not through buddy bond. It's one thing to tell someone you feel bad and leave it at that. It's another for someone to actually experience it.
As much as she should know better. Feelings of doubting herself come to the surface. Did she really deserve anything that Joker was giving her right now? Will he keep loving her? Will Fox or North get tired of her? Were any of them willing to be patient and work through things with Prim as they happen? Betrayal not only intensified these feelings, it made them linger.
The anxiety from the game tower returns too, buzzing about her head. And now being inflicted on Joker. But he hasn't told her to stop? Why? ]
and, in fact, that feeling only seems to grow as he feels her trying to let those feelings out. Joker's always been more of a tactile person than a vocal one, so it's just easier for him to express it more through using his free hand to take hold of her chin so he can kiss her more solidly. soundly. not pressuring or needy but just simple and there.
because he's still there, and he'll still be there. he's not going anywhere. he could never get tired of her. never]
[ And she loves him just as much, maybe a little more.
Her doubt is easily squashed by the love and attention. But feeling so many things at once causes tears again. How long has it been since she's had an earnest cry? The game tower didn't count. That was out of being incredibly overwhelmed. But she's never overwhelmed with Joker in her presence. She knows he's trying to help.
Her lips press solid against his. She needs that physical rock right now. To help ground her. ]
[he's trying best he knows how, which is admittedly not great or much but. her crying just makes him want to kiss away the tears so much--but rather than that, it's more important that she lets them flow. so he lifts a hand to cup her cheek, keeping up the physical reminder that he's here with her, he may be tired but he's got energy and room enough to take on whatever else she has still locked up.]
[ Eventually she breaks the kiss, but not the Buddy Bond. She's weepy, sure, but the look she gives him is one of adoration. Of love. Of appreciation for being here to comfort her right now. ]
I'm really enough, right?
[ Her wings flutter a little. Heart absolutely pounding out of her chest. ]
[it gets a flash of confusion because he thinks it's pretty self-evident? but then he just smiles and... so much... fond affection love. his own wings flare up a bit in response while his tail lashes]
[ She just needed to hear it, that was all. Her emotions settle, but still hum gently beneath how adored she feels right now. But, the next feeling...is one a little more dangerous. She allows the feeling where she liked giving and receiving pain to surface. It felt good to have a little bit of control...
A little bit of danger... ]
[ She's trusting him with this right now. The way her mind wants to play with that awakened side of herself. ]
[it really... just calls attention to his own interests. control is definitely a large part of it--having, or rather making, someone or himself utterly lose it... really, with or without pain but he can see the appeal in where pain is a factor.
and he really.
really can't help the bit of desire that crops up when he feels that. has to take a breath because, in fact, a little bit of danger...
he's not secure with his feelings on this, either, but... it's comforting. to have someone who gets it.]
[ She shifts a leg over Joker, moving to straddle him. Her wings perched now. ]
Let me feel more?
[ Now that they...kind of get it. Prim wants to feel those same feelings from Joker. He said they could explore, and right now she's wading into unknown waters. ]
[ If I could find that picture of Haru straddling Joker, it's like that. ]
and Joker's hands are, in fact, moving to settle on her thighs for a moment, fingers pressing in because here sure is... a want, desire, flaring up at those words. his heart's hammering in his chest and it's definitely more the nervous excitement of breaching an unknown than anything like worry or even fear.]
[ This is the coping method, right? Feel very strong feelings with your boyfriend until morale improves. She isn't shy about scooting directly onto his hips. Hands going to cover his. ]
I want to feel everything.
[ She scoots his hands to her inner thighs even. ]
[he is keenly interested in where this is going but makes a show of considering things as he lets his thumbs run along her thighs.]
"Everything", huh...
[there's some hesitation, very brief, because "don't hold back"--which just means he's going to be reaching out to ramp up some of those positive desirous feelings. a danger, to be sure, but it's just what was already there, and not by much. but maybe noticeable.]
[ she really wants to not think right now. they can do this, and not think about anything BUT this. she likes that idea. ]
[ her smile turns somewhat wide and dangerous as well, joker was always so good to her. she knows if she asked...he would stop. she knew if she said more, he would give more. she takes a deep breath. she's...happy. happy he would entertain these thoughts so soon.
getting it out of her system, knowing what they would be working with. that was what she was after right now. ]
Perfect. So can I. I can definitely work with that.
[ She leans forward slightly, cupping his cheeks, thumbs rubbing at the tops of his cheek bones. ]
You're very unfairly handsome when you make that face, you know.
[the happiness is answered with a relief and happiness of his own, and he makes a point to increase that same feeling of desire from before again, more noticeably--timing it for right when he shifts under her pointedly. his fingers digging into her thighs a bit.]
[ She gasps slightly, pushing her hips back down into his. The spike of emotion that came with it is enough to get her a little fuzzed out for a moment. She actually....really liked that. ]
Again.
[ That's really all she can manage, those specific feelings both mental and physical were...very nice. ]
[but in fact he doesn't delay in continuing to rock up into her, this time doubling that emotion as he does, hands sliding up to her hips as heady desire starts to show more on his end of the bond, thoroughly interested in seeing how she'll respond]
[ She responds with just as much desire, really. She's more than super into this. Being amped up on feelings. Both physical and mental are certainly a good way to stop thinking about all of the other things that are going on right now.
Her filter has left her at this point. Being no ounce of quiet as they move against each other. ]
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Re: Day 156
Date: 2019-09-30 03:52 am (UTC)As much as she should know better. Feelings of doubting herself come to the surface. Did she really deserve anything that Joker was giving her right now? Will he keep loving her? Will Fox or North get tired of her? Were any of them willing to be patient and work through things with Prim as they happen? Betrayal not only intensified these feelings, it made them linger.
The anxiety from the game tower returns too, buzzing about her head. And now being inflicted on Joker. But he hasn't told her to stop? Why? ]
Re: Day 156
Date: 2019-09-30 04:05 am (UTC)and, in fact, that feeling only seems to grow as he feels her trying to let those feelings out. Joker's always been more of a tactile person than a vocal one, so it's just easier for him to express it more through using his free hand to take hold of her chin so he can kiss her more solidly. soundly. not pressuring or needy but just simple and there.
because he's still there, and he'll still be there. he's not going anywhere. he could never get tired of her. never]
Re: Day 156
Date: 2019-09-30 04:09 am (UTC)Her doubt is easily squashed by the love and attention. But feeling so many things at once causes tears again. How long has it been since she's had an earnest cry? The game tower didn't count. That was out of being incredibly overwhelmed. But she's never overwhelmed with Joker in her presence. She knows he's trying to help.
Her lips press solid against his. She needs that physical rock right now. To help ground her. ]
Re: Day 156
Date: 2019-09-30 04:47 am (UTC)Re: Day 156
Date: 2019-09-30 04:56 am (UTC)I'm really enough, right?
[ Her wings flutter a little. Heart absolutely pounding out of her chest. ]
Re: Day 156
Date: 2019-09-30 05:26 am (UTC)More than enough.
Re: Day 156
Date: 2019-09-30 05:30 am (UTC)A little bit of danger... ]
[ She's trusting him with this right now. The way her mind wants to play with that awakened side of herself. ]
Re: Day 156
Date: 2019-09-30 05:41 am (UTC)and he really.
really can't help the bit of desire that crops up when he feels that. has to take a breath because, in fact, a little bit of danger...
he's not secure with his feelings on this, either, but... it's comforting. to have someone who gets it.]
Re: Day 156
Date: 2019-09-30 05:49 am (UTC)Let me feel more?
[ Now that they...kind of get it. Prim wants to feel those same feelings from Joker. He said they could explore, and right now she's wading into unknown waters. ]
[ If I could find that picture of Haru straddling Joker, it's like that. ]
Re: Day 156
Date: 2019-09-30 06:14 am (UTC)and Joker's hands are, in fact, moving to settle on her thighs for a moment, fingers pressing in because here sure is... a want, desire, flaring up at those words. his heart's hammering in his chest and it's definitely more the nervous excitement of breaching an unknown than anything like worry or even fear.]
... as much as you want.
Re: Day 156
Date: 2019-09-30 06:22 am (UTC)[ This is the coping method, right? Feel very strong feelings with your boyfriend until morale improves. She isn't shy about scooting directly onto his hips. Hands going to cover his. ]
I want to feel everything.
[ She scoots his hands to her inner thighs even. ]
Re: Day 156
Date: 2019-10-03 01:18 am (UTC)"Everything", huh...
[there's some hesitation, very brief, because "don't hold back"--which just means he's going to be reaching out to ramp up some of those positive desirous feelings. a danger, to be sure, but it's just what was already there, and not by much. but maybe noticeable.]
I think I can work with that.
[dangerous smile, for sure.]
Re: Day 156
Date: 2019-10-03 03:18 am (UTC)[ her smile turns somewhat wide and dangerous as well, joker was always so good to her. she knows if she asked...he would stop. she knew if she said more, he would give more. she takes a deep breath. she's...happy. happy he would entertain these thoughts so soon.
getting it out of her system, knowing what they would be working with. that was what she was after right now. ]
Perfect. So can I. I can definitely work with that.
[ She leans forward slightly, cupping his cheeks, thumbs rubbing at the tops of his cheek bones. ]
You're very unfairly handsome when you make that face, you know.
Re: Day 156
Date: 2019-10-09 04:29 am (UTC)[the happiness is answered with a relief and happiness of his own, and he makes a point to increase that same feeling of desire from before again, more noticeably--timing it for right when he shifts under her pointedly. his fingers digging into her thighs a bit.]
I'll have to keep that in mind.
Re: Day 156
Date: 2019-10-09 05:01 am (UTC)[ She gasps slightly, pushing her hips back down into his. The spike of emotion that came with it is enough to get her a little fuzzed out for a moment. She actually....really liked that. ]
Again.
[ That's really all she can manage, those specific feelings both mental and physical were...very nice. ]
Re: Day 156
Date: 2019-10-13 10:43 pm (UTC)[but in fact he doesn't delay in continuing to rock up into her, this time doubling that emotion as he does, hands sliding up to her hips as heady desire starts to show more on his end of the bond, thoroughly interested in seeing how she'll respond]
Re: Day 156
Date: 2019-10-13 11:42 pm (UTC)Her filter has left her at this point. Being no ounce of quiet as they move against each other. ]